Here’s to all the moms (if you make it to the end)…


Yesterday was a doozie. I woke at 3am and then 4am. It might have something to do with that espresso I drank before bedtime. Finally at 4:30, I allowed myself to get up.

My blog was mid-process on the URL switch so I new I couldn’t do much with that. But no worries, I had planned for this. I had plenty of other things to do.

I created a couple of eBay guides and caught up on bookkeeping and checked Facebook approximately 185 times. I took the dog to the groomers and came back home and started cleaning for the cleaning lady. (Gotta love it!)

Once I’d bent over a few times to pick up clothes and things, my mild vertigo gave way to full-on dizziness and nausea. I had an appt to work out for the first time in weeks, but I knew I wouldn’t be worth much so I canceled and hunkered down at the computer to work.

For some reason my vertigo isn’t as bad when I’m sitting at the computer. I guess because I’m sitting still. It’s more of an imbalance than vertigo, truly. I’m not dizzy, I’m swaying. Constantly swaayyyiinng. It makes me feel like I’m sort of floating above the surface of my life. I keep thinking it’s getting some better, and then I will start doing normal activities and it comes back full-force.

My site should have been up and running by then, but there were issues. Issues that weren’t being answered or resolved even though I paid for this service in hopes of alleviating the stress that usually accompanies such projects.

I hired a new designer for a new logo, and I was excited that she can get moving on this right way. I’m nervous and excited — on the one hand, I love my current one, but on the other hand, I’m excited to see what she will come back with. For those who don’t blog, getting a new design is almost like picking out your wedding dress. You try on a ton, trying to find The One. There is this huge pressure to get it right because it will represent YOU for many years. It’s fun, stressful, exciting and nerve wracking all at the same time.

UPDATE: I woke up this morning to an email with a TON of logo concepts. I almost clapped my hands, I was so excited and relieved because a) I like them and b) I like lots of choices. Now to decide between them…

The day progressed. I spent an obscene amount of time on Facebook. My world continued to gently sway. I decided I don’t like being bored. Not one iota.

The kids got home, I put dinner in the oven, drove them to various lessons and practices and managed to fit in a glass of wine with a good friend. She got to hear all about my frustration with my site and my anxiety/obsession over waiting to see the new logo concepts. Why she sticks around, I have no idea.

Finally at about 9pm my site was working. What a relief! It’s not like I had any major deadlines looming or anything, but there’s something about having my website out of commission that just puts an extra layer of stress over everything.

I finally laid down in bed and snuggled with my wee one as I grabbed my phone for one last look at Facebook. And I came across this post (language alert). At least 4 of my friends had shard it, and while it looked like same-old, same-old, I went back and clocked just in case….

Oh my word, you guys. Pardon the language, but this is a do-not-miss. Hands down, the funniest thing I’ve read all year. I laughed until I was sobbing. My daughter was lying in bed next to me, and I think I scared her.

It was just so bang-on. And it couldn’t have come at a more appropriate time for me… with two back-to-back trips that took me away from my home and family, the anxiety over the website, the excitement over the new design, and trying to keep the home fires burning with this infernal vertigo that just will. not. go. away. I feel like I’m sleep walking thru each day.

The kids have bought school lunch 8 of the past 10 days.

Dinner has been a free for all.

Homework has been an afterthought.

The laundry hasn’t been touched in a week.

I haven’t showered since Tuesday, and my suitcase is still lying open on my bedroom floor… the contents of my trip to Costa Rica spilling out onto the floor. (The cleaning lady just vacuumed around it — she’s used to me and my sloppy ways.

Hey, if I leave it there for another two weeks, I can just fold it up again and take it with me to Turks & Caicos.

No, I do not expect anyone to feel sorry for me. I’m not even complaining. I know I’m living the dream. But that article… Oh, how I could relate.

So here’s to the moms who don’t slip Pinterest-perfect printables into their kids’ lunch boxes, who wear their pajamas till noon and have piles of dirty clothes forming a science experiment in the corner of the bathroom… at the end of the day, our kids know they’re loved, and that is enough.

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20 Responses

  1. Man, I would love to have your problems. Suitcases, but especially the cleaning lady. If she gets tired of vacuuming around your suitcases, send her my way! LOLOLOL.

    I can’t wait to see how your new logo looks, I am sure it will as awesome as ever. Enjoy all your hard work, enjoy your family, and just take it easy!

    Happy Friday!

    1. Ha. As I said, I’m not complaining. And yes, the first thing I did when I started making money blogging was hire a cleaning lady! I can pay her monthly rate with one sponsored post. Well worth it!!

  2. Hi. First time comment, but after reading about your dizziness, I thought maybe I should say something. Have you heard of Benign Positional Vertigo? Do you have the rapid eye movement when you get dizzy? Apparently we humans have these tiny crystals in our inner ears to help us balance and sometimes they float out of their proper place and can cause dizziness. I know it sounds a little crazy, but… it happened to me about 6 years ago. I woke up one morning with the room swaying and that’s what it turned out to be. It’s pretty sudden onset. I eventually went to an Ear, Nose & Throat doctor when it didn’t go away. There are exercises you can do (positioning of your head) to get the crystals to go back in their proper places. Again, I know it sounds crazy. I thought I was being punk’d or on candid camera when the tech was doing the exercises with me. But it works. Now if I feel any dizziness (it still happens maybe once or twice a year) I just do the exercises at home and it goes away. Anyway, just a possibility. I enjoy your blog… good luck with everything. 🙂

    1. I think someone did mention that. I know the crystals in the ear can get out of whack. I guess I need to search youtube and try the exercises, b/c this doesn’t seem to be going away on its own as my doctor predicted.

      1. I also have regular bouts of Benign Positional Vertigo. My doctor referred me to a physical therapist who specializes in vestibular issues. That PT saved my life. I have since found out that most physical therapists can treat vertigo and dizziness. I cannot recommend physical therapy enough! My PT cures my dizziness in one visit…every single time.

  3. I love your blog! I have been reading for a couple of years now. I got vertigo after a 14 hour car trip about 7 years ago. I felt like my head was constantly swimming. I went to ent, had an MRI, tested everything. I still feel it from time to time especially when the barometric pressure changes for rain as crazy as it sounds. I think it had something to do with posture, neck position, shoes I was wearing, and carrying heavy bags on the same shoulder.
    The chiropractor helped me and I went regularly for several years.
    I hope you get relief soon. It is a very annoying condition and it is also very obscure to try to explain.

  4. I would LOVE to know if your chiropractor is able to help. I have suffered from major post-travel vertigo twice, and it was worse the second time around. In both cases, the flights were quite long, with the second one involving having to circle as we approached the airport. The vertigo did resolve on its own both times, but it was a decline over 2-3 weeks. Good luck!

  5. Whoa, you’ve got a lot going on, lady! I can relate, especially with all the housework that’s left undone, and cleaning for the cleaners. I got a chuckle out of that because I always stress when it’s time for the cleaners to come b/c it means I have to clean up for them! I know it makes no sense. It sounds crazy busy for you but a lot of fun. Hope you have some time to relax this weekend. ~Cynthia

  6. You know what Jo-Lynne? Its nice to know you’re human!! 🙂 Although, I’m sorry about the vertigo! My mom has Ménière’s disease – have you heard of it? Its basically vertigo but its treatable. And very rare. K – back to work for me too! 🙂

  7. I’m surprised your dizziness has stuck around. I know you’ve probably been told a million times, and have already looked it up, but since I’m guessing it’s inner-ear issues, aren’t there exercises you can do to kind of reset/reallign your inner-ear balance? I remember hearing about this years ago. Just a thought.
    You sound to me like you’re trying to do too much, esp. with health issues right now. You need about 3 J-Ls to do it all! You need a break that just keeps you at home and keeps you OFF the computer 🙂

    1. OMG please do not wish that on me! You have no idea how stressy I would be if I’m not able to work. It is the only thing that gets me thru not being able to be active. I think I have had enough “breaks”.

      I definitely should try exercises. I am just unsure how to start, and I don’t want to make it worse, OMG, that WOULD be just my luck.

      I am always trying to do too much. That is what keeps me going! I am not happy any other way. 🙂

  8. Jo-Lynne,
    Thank you so much for sharing that first month/second month blog post. I smiled through the first part, but laughed out loud through the whole second part! I don’t go for foul language, either, but I’ll have to say it did add to the meaning and flavor, ha ha. Loved all of the captions under the photos. I’m laughing again just thinking of them!
    As far you and your vertigo: Ugh! I honestly hope that clears up for you. Soon. No fun. Just wondered – have you tried having another glass of wine? (heh, heh.)
    Thanks again for the much needed humor relief!

    1. Oh girl, yes. I have definitely tried the wine. 🙂 I do think it is sloooowwwwly dissipating. It’s just such gradual process, I almost don’t notice. Glad you liked the article. The captions… omigosh….

  9. I am right there with you on the blog waiting game. When I switched hosts I was out for a WEEK! All I kept thinking was CRAP all my hard work and people will NEVER come back!! I’m ridiculous.

    That article. OH MY WORD. SPOT ON! Only it was like week number 2 or 3 that the “honeymoon” phase of back to school ended. Thankfully we’ve already settled into the normal we-know-what-to-say-and-what-not-to-say to get through the morning with minimal to no tears or yelling. It’s faster the older (and wiser) they get. 🙂

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